72nd Effexor Update - Feeling Poor

Slept okey. The gig yesterday seemed to have worked well, met some people, the rest was 70+y folks. Was a long night, ended up with a friend(very good trumpeter) and his wife at the house of our pastor and his wife having long talks. That was nice, have a good connection to them. But it was also kind of boring and unsatisfying. Today started okey, then was constantly angry and desperate about my Situation, started to feel depersonalized and took another 3h nap. Still feeling depersonalized and sad. Fucked up shit. Hope my brain gets a grip soon again. Trying to excercise a little again and learn harmonics but this condition makes everything pretty hard. However, it could also be way worse but thats not really soothing right now.